The Movement is the dance ministry I was apart of within DURAG Ministries on JMU's campus. DURAG is an acronym for Divine Unity Righteously Apply God. I love love this particular dance because its so honest and true. I'm in the skirt. :) If you want to know more about DURAG check them out at http://www.duragministries.org/, check their channel on YouTube at DURAGJMU, or like them on facebook! The song is "All I have to Give" by Mali Music (he's great check him out too!)



It takes a while to start so you can just click to start watching at about 2:18

Wow...Before it was like a cycle with him
He'd be here one minute then gone the next
I never knew what to expect...well...I didn't want to expect it
But this time...it's been different.
He's been sharing his heart and I'm learning to trust him
And...now my concern isn't for his actions
...It’s for hers
She's feeling him and
I'm not sure how to handle this
But I guess I'll be remiss if I ignore it
Like she doesn't exist
"She" ...now I'm talking to you
I went to the Lord for you
I let Him know how my heart hurt at
How you seemed to be confused and without a clue
Of the danger recklessly approaching you
...And then He reminded me
Just of how I used to be...
Now listen closely cuz this is what He told me...
Don’t awaken love until its good and ready …wait until it’s supposed to be
Cuz you'll end up bruised emotionally
And spiritually you're supposed to be pursuing God wholeheartedly
Not looking over your shoulder like, "Is this him? Is he coming after me?"
*sigh* Trust me...this is not a territorial battle
But I been in these trenches before
And please take heed to the Lord before you continue to open the door to your heart..
Please guard it …it’s like a garden
Beautiful and inviting but be aware of who or what your invite in
And make sure its set on the right things...
Things eternal and not solely on the yearns of this world
Cuz girl...they'll catch you
Chew you up, swallow, and then reject you
Leaving you reeking of bitterness and anger
When the whole time you could have been pleasingly fragrant and remained pure
In His love...the only one that's worth any pain
The only one we're all seeking to gain
Nothing else compares...so there
I said it, I got it off my chest…
I'll leave you with some encouragement and I'll let God handle the rest
Seek first His kingdom and all other things will be added
Hang that banner of love around your neck and don't take it for granted
Know that you're in my prayers and I don't take this lightly
Focus on your walk with Christ
And don't worry about whom that "he" might be...

                                                                                                                               
Song of Solomon 2:7 Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you by the gazelles and by the does of the field: Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.

Proverbs 4:23 Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

Colossians 3:2 Set your mind on the things above, not on the things of earth & Deuteronomy 6:5 Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.

2 Corinthians 2:15-16 For we are to God the pleasing aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. To the one we are an aroma that brings death; to the other, an aroma that brings life. And who is equal to such a task?

Matthew 6:33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Song of Solomon 2:4 He has taken me to the banquet hall, and his banner over me is love

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This song is currently in HEAVY rotation. It's on my playlist and I find it very encouraging.
 These are the lyrics

You look around, staring back at you
Another wave of doubt, will it pull you under? You wonder
What if I'm overtaken? What if I never make it?
What if no one's there? Will You hear my prayer?

When you take that first step into the unknown
You know that He won't let you go

So what are you waiting for? What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities, they try to hold to you
But you know you're made for more, so don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all it takes, and you can walk on the water, too

So get out, and let your fear fall to the ground
No time to waste, don't wait, and don't you turn around and miss out
Everything you were made for, I know you're not sure
So you play it safe, you try to run away

If you take that first step into the unknown
He won't let you go

So what are you waiting for? What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities, they try to hold to you
But you know you're made for more, so don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all it takes, and you can walk on the water, too

Step out, even when it's storming
Step out, even when you're broken
Step out, even when your heart is telling you
Telling you to give up
Step out, when your hope is stolen
Step out, you can't see where you're going
You don't have to be afraid
So what are you waiting, what are you waiting for?

So what are you waiting for? What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities try to hold to you
You know you're made for more, so don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all it takes, and you can walk on the water
Walk on the water, too

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Huntsville, Alabama was amazing. In the car with my Aunt and Uncle I got to think, pray, and reflect on all that happened. I was excited to have the opportunity to get away to a new setting and for all the experiences I know I was being prepared to have. Once I was there, my excitement only increased.




Huntsville is such a flat city. Not a lot of tall buildings or trees. I didn't mind because from the car I was able to see the beauty of the sky. So much beauty. In most of the car rides my eyes searched the clouds during the day and admired the stars at night.









8-20-2010



Here, finally. I've had so much to think about and reflect on. A great deal has happened and I was asked "was it worth it?" God I want to say yes. For the opportunity to come to know you on a deeper, more intimate level it was absolutely worth it. It got to a point where I was on the verge of breaking in frustration because it felt like you weren't there. Looking back, I recall the question you asked me while I was still at camp. I was praying “God take me deeper, I want more of you,” then you asked me are you sure? Asking for more of you means that you could take me to levels I've never imagined and reveal so much to me and about me that I’ve never known. Are you really ready? I guess all of what happened was the challenge to see where my faith lies. Have I surrendered it all to you or am I still trying to do it all myself? I can say I am ready and I thank you for the lessons you have coming. I'm excited knowing that you are sovereign and I'm resting in your unexplainable peace. God I love you and I want so much more. I can feel you here with me and I'm ready to see your will be done. Each step I know you laid out and I pray that you keep my way right that I don't fall and my ankles do not turn.
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Immediately my days were busy. I was job searching, seeing the city, and getting to know my extended relatives. My cousins are much older than me and we never really had much conversation but in my time there I got to sit and really talk life with both of them, along with my aunt and uncle. The end of August through to September was full of lessons of apartment shopping, budgeting money, and career building. I met with people about my career choices, celebrated my 22nd birthday, salsa danced, saw the cotton fields, and went to an Alabama A&M football game. I enjoyed late night talks, movies and lots of laughter :O)



9-2-2010



Yesterday was my birthday! I am now 22 years old and I have so much to be grateful for. Being here in Alabama I am learning so much. You are setting things in motion and making your will clear day by day. God I trust you and I love you so much! I'm excited because of the favor you have shown. I was able to have an awesome meeting with a woman in the PR field. She dropped some knowledge lol and even some contacts. Thanks for setting that up! Also my cousin was kind enough to set up another meeting concerning my career with another woman in the field. You are awesome! I trust you no matter where these doors lead and I know you have my best interest in mind.


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In Huntsville I also had a lot of down time. In that time I prayed. I prayed for my family and for my future. I was excited about what was happening. My new excitement was soon met with the return of some old and enervating feelings that were all too familiar...to be continued...